Moving Ahead, one step at a time
"I would like to share
a little something I wrote
in memory of my husband, Kenny.
Hoping it will encourage some widows."
you know, it throws that unexpected curveball right in your face!
How do we handle it? Do we just 'shake-it-off'?? Do we 'work-through' it??
It's easy to say what we 'would' do---until it happens to us.
I had thought about it many times--- what would I do if Kenny passed away? How would I handle it? Not to be morbid, but because my husband and I were nearing the big 6-0...yep, 60!
We were getting ready to put the house on the market and move to North Carolina, near my oldest sister, so we could start our early retirement.....we couldn't wait!
All the updates on the house were done and we were ready to sign the contract to sell. But suddenly my world was turned upside down and inside out, without warning...that proverbial curveball!!
Kenny had gone into sudden, unexpected cardiac arrest...what???? We were having our 'date day,' it was all planned out, as was our move to NC...how could this happen??
"I know," I thought. "It will all work out and Kenny will start to exercise and eat better as a result...it'll be good to be in better health for his retirement anyway."
However, that was NOT God's plan for either of our paths....He had different plans. Needless to say, the next few days, weeks and even months are a bit of a blur still. I went back to my thoughts over the years about 'how' I would respond, react and cope with such a tragedy...
I had not even come close....
But I do have to say, The Lord Himself has manifested His Presence when I needed it, and on several occasions, gave me that wonderful peace that, literally, passes understanding! I'm not going to lie, this journey has been rough but with God's grace, I have made it this far and will continue to move forward.
I do find comfort in knowing that God's plan for my life has always been this; widowhood is not plan "B." Kenny's path on earth ended with him walking into the arms of His precious Jesus and bowing at his feet in abandoned worship...free in His eternal presence!!
I do not know what God has in store for me yet, but I trust Him! Until I see Him face to face, I move ahead, step by step, one day at a time.