Today's post contains some of the most powerful truth about choices for the Christian---Jesus Christ has set us free to live in his truth and victory. Our feelings are very strong, but Christ offers us freedom and we do not have to let them control us. He said, "Let not your heart be troubled," in John 14, but how do we do that? Sometimes I think widowhood is an extreme course in discipleship because the widow faces the issue of surrendering those feelings head on. Sometimes it's a spiritual battle and struggle in a very lonely place. But it's not simply a matter of stopping the feelings. We can't just stop the emotions! Instead we need to replace them with something better; I don't think she intended to, but in this piece from her journal Elizabeth shows us how she did it. I treasure the way she identified her feelings---she didn't deny or stuff them; instead she chose to remind herself of who she is in Christ and what she knows about God and His ways .... When we do that, a transformation occurs. Read on, take hope, and keep on keeping on my sisters... ♥ ferree
It had been one of those days when it feels . . . .
- It feels like everyone has forgotten me.
- It feels like I am so very alone.
- It feels like I don't matter.
- It feels like there is judgements from too many sources.
- It feels like I will never succeed at this single-parent thing.
- It feels like the tears will never end.
- It feels like the pressure from it all will surely make my head literally explode.
The Holy Spirit gently touches my heart. I'm reminded of previous days when the feelings were so very intense and of how I made it through those days.
It is certain I didn't survive on feelings! I was able to walk through those days by forcing myself to focus on the things that I know.
- I may feel forgotten and alone, but I know God is always with me and He has not forgotten me and He has a purpose for this path on which He has placed me. ( ". . .I will never leave thee nor forsake thee." Heb. 13:5 )
- I may feel judgement (and it may honestly be there), but I know that I only answer to the few individuals to whom I've made myself accountable and ultimately to God Himself. ( "So then, everyone of us shall give an account of himself to God." Rom. 14:12 )
- I may feel that the tears will never end, but I know that God sees my tears and that He promises joy. ( " . . . weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." Ps. 30:5 )
- I may feel that the pressure is just too great, but I know God's strength is available to me if I choose to accept it. ( "And He said unto me, '. . . My strength is made perfect in weakness.' " II Cor.12:9)
That day, I took each of those areas where it feels, and I acknowledged before God the truth of what I know.
This process is emotionally and mentally exhausting. I was left feeling spent, and my eyes still burned from the tears that had been shed. But the reward for the effort was there -- the weight was lifted, and I was at peace.
© 2015 by Elizabeth Fruetel. Used by permission. Visit her blog, Musings for more of her insightful writing and godly wisdom on widowhood.